Almost Spring 2020 – Uncertain times

Mar 29 2020
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Almost Spring 2020 – So, as most of you know, I generally have projects/posts complete and scheduled for publication a couple of months ahead of time. I don’t mean for you guys to not see what I’m working on as its happening but deadlines kill me. It is what is. However, this doesn’t totally ring true of my personal updates/blog posts like this one. Generally I write these a couple of weeks (maybe a month) before they come out here. (That’s about as close to a deadline as my anxiety will let me get.) However…

Because COVID-19 is changing our daily lives constantly right now I expect I will probably be updating this post right up until it goes live….

On Friday at 11:59pm Minnesota moved to a shelter in place order closing down all non essential businesses etc. Turns out what I do is essential so I’m still working.

(Our governor Walz gave the most impressive press conference on Wednesday, it’s worth hearing. I am so proud of my state. I was sitting in my car yesterday behind a school bus watching them delivering lunches just crying my eyes out.)

We are all practicing hardcore social distancing ESPECIALLY from my Mom. She is totally grounded. We all agreed that no one should be stepping foot in her home except me but only if I absolutely MUST.

Spring 2020 – WTF

After twelve weeks and six chemo treatments my Mom only has two more treatments to go!

Taking her to get her chemotherapy right now feels like a rush to get there and then a rush to get her home like we’re being chased or something!

It would not surprise me at all if I won’t be able to even go to her last two treatments. Sandford currently allows one family member per patient but I doubt that’ll last very long and rightfully so.

After a break for her she’ll be going down to the Mayo in Rochester for her big checkup and beginning her five weeks of radiation. She shouldn’t feel near so shitty during the radiation treatments as she did with the chemo, so her worst treatments and side effects are probably almost behind her.

Thank you all so much for your kindness and love sent our way!

Almost Spring 2020 – One day at a time.

The blog post I wrote for today a couple of weeks ago sure did make me shake my head when I read it.

Isn’t it amazing how the kind of things we were worrying about, taking so serious a few weeks ago, seem so trivial now?

I look forward (like everyone else) to return to that kind of normalcy again but I hope we all remember these days and have better perspective on what’s actually important once they’re over.

This post was going to be all about the happy news that Lodi and I made the decision to move in together.

A few weeks ago Lodi’s place sold and he found an inexpensive pay-per-month room in his city until he found a job here. In the meantime we moved his furniture out here and Annie permanently in with me at Grandma’s house.

Spring 2020 at Grandma's house DIY making the decision for Lodi and Annie to move in with me here at Stoyrhardt Farm - I'm getting room mates!

(Annie is a good little senior pupper. As once a working service dog to soldiers with PTSD there isn’t much that fazes her. She spends most of her time looking at me with the withering patience of a slightly-annoyed-but-still-loves-me Big Sister.)

Last week I picked up the three basic food groups for my little farm: dog food, horse oats and alcohol. All my beasties are set for a long while no matter what happens and yes I have enough food for me too – I didn’t JUST buy alcohol LOL.

I’ve sucked at sitting my entire life.

Working on something is mandatory for my peace of mind and sanity but all of this just killed my ambition. last weekend I didn’t get off the couch or out of bed. All I did was feed the animals and (sometimes) myself. That was it.

But I think its understandable – I think we’re all going through it right now.

I feel like this spring 2020 will be summed up with one word:


Waiting to find out if what we did was enough, waiting to be OK again. Waiting for anything resembling normalcy – jobs, schools, bars, restaurants – just waiting for answers of any kind.

PS: Let’s spoil ourselves and our pets and our families a little. Let’s have more patience with each other and maybe some junk food that’s usually off limits. Let’s give ourselves a break and just the one goal to get through this safely any way we can – we can worry about the rest later.

Spring 2020 at Grandma's house DIY making hard decisions during the covid-19 pandemic with a young relationship, uncertain times


  1. Jenny
    March 29, 2020 at 5:53 am

    What a sweet pup! I bet you love the company. ๐Ÿ˜€ Best wishes for your mom and the rest of her treatments. Stay healthy and safe!

    March 29, 2020 at 8:28 am

    I am a poor sleeper so I do the 2 ’til 3 am prayer shift. Prayers said for you and your mun each night Candles at the cathedral are out at the moment.
    Teresa UK

    • March 30, 2020 at 8:49 am

      Thank you so much Teresa! *hugs*

  3. Christie
    March 29, 2020 at 8:48 am

    Prayers for your Mom and hugs to you. We Will get through this.

    • March 30, 2020 at 8:51 am

      Thank you so much Christie *hugs*

  4. March 29, 2020 at 9:05 am

    I love reading your blog every week. Stay safe and love Annie.

  5. March 29, 2020 at 9:14 am

    P.s. Annie looks like she’s waiting for a reaction from you so she can take care of business. She looks like she’s saying “just give me a sign”

    • March 30, 2020 at 8:58 am

      Cheryl, that is totally Annie, she’s like, “What now? Tell me what to do!”

  6. March 30, 2020 at 4:39 am

    Hello Tarah…. pleased to see you this morning. First let me send good wishes for your Mum. The treatment is nearly ended, and let us hope that the radiotherapy does the complete trick.

    Not for the same reason but I have a 94 year old relative who is on total lock-down for a complex list of health worries. That’s so hard when you live on your own. But she has food in the freezer and the cupboard, and friends will buy fresh stuff and leave it on her doorstep. We phone each other every day. So I understand about keeping your Mum safe. I am in the group where we can go to the shops, and go out once a day for exercise. So big projects at home. Just now converting two roman blinds into a pair of curtains for our bedroom. I have a big garden (about 100ft x 70ft) which willl give me loads to do throughout the spring. You and I are lucky to have space around us. I feel so much for apartment-dwellers. How lovely to have the horses and Annie out there with you. Something like that gives us a sense of purpose when all around us is madness. But in that madness I am seeing much kindness in the world too. Keep on with the blog – I am stealing little hints and perspectives from other blogs regularly for mine, and adding “pretty pictures” for cheer. A big Hug wings its way to you, and I will be looking for your next post. xx

    • March 30, 2020 at 9:26 am

      Susan, many hugs sent to you and your Mum! I totally agree, being in an apartment right now would be tough, thank goodness spring is hitting here now. I can’t wait to get in my garden too!

  7. March 30, 2020 at 7:21 am

    I live in NYS and we’ve been shut down for a while now. Our governor is amazing and is fighting daily to get what is needed to fight this pandemic. Sadly, I think we’re in this for the long haul. Warmer weather needs to get here so I can get outside more….I haven’t been anywhere in the last 2 weeks! Try to keep busy with your projects – that’s what I’m doing to make the waiting easier. Sending prayers for your Mom.

    • March 30, 2020 at 9:21 am

      Ann, normally I’m a home body but we’ve all agreed that now that we HAVE to be home we want to go somewhere lol You’re so right, thank goodness the weather is getting better, being able to go outside is going to help a lot!

  8. Mary
    March 30, 2020 at 9:18 am

    Tarah your sweet dog looks just like mine. We are so lucky to have a pet to keep us company and lift our spirits. Stay safe and sane.

  9. March 30, 2020 at 4:32 pm

    Tarah, Just wanted t say thanks for posting an article earlier on gardens and the evil of RR Ties. I had mentioned on my blog that I used ties as a border around fruit trees and had been taking flack for it both in emails and in my comment section.

    It was just so much easier to quote you than to do the research! I did attribute your words to you.

    Stay safe through these troubling times,


    • April 1, 2020 at 9:42 am

      Thanks Garry glad I could be of help! As soon as I started writing the post I knew I would catch a lot of flack so I started researching immediately.

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