March 2024 – I’m sorry to say I have some really sad news
March 2024 (I titled our January 2024 blog post: “The hits just never quit last year” – I’m so tired guys. I ended that post on the little hope that 2024 might just bring some better days not immediately one of my worst.) Gargoyle had been with me since I was 11. I worried about him all the time. This was one of very few mornings I didn’t make sure to see him before I left for work. I was late. I was in a hurry.
Gar had been gone by then.
There was no sign that he struggled or suffered as far as we can tell.
The day before he was acting totally normal so though he was ancient in horse age, this was still a shock for us.
My mom took this just as terribly as I did. Gar had been with us for 26 years and I would have been glad to have taken care of him forever. We had a lot more time than most people get with their fur babies but that is no comfort.
This sucks.
March 2024
1992-2024 BR Hal Garcia.
Just that afternoon a friend came over with a backhoe and we buried him not far from where he was. I wrapped a rope around my old boy for the last time so they could drag him to his place.
I decided to put him right in front of his shed in the sun. One of his favorite spots.
No more horses for me. I can’t do this again.
And now I have a new empty spot in my yard to try to wrap my head around. I wonder how long it will be that I’ll finally stop looking for him every morning and every time I come home and every time I leave.
When mom fed our animals for us when we were gone she said she made sure to find him every morning. I told her we all did it. It couldn’t be helped.
When I brought Gar here in 2015 this place officially became my home. It feels very wrong that he isn’t here anymore.
God I’m sad.
I’m so sorry to hear about Gargoyle’s passing. Animals ask so little and give so much.
Thank you Jeannie <3
I’m so, so sorry for your loss, I’ve never had a horse but I can imagine to some extent the relationship that you had together would be very different to that shared with a dog.
I used to fly a Harris Hawk before my disability, I reared him from a chick and my relationship with him was very different from other creatures I had, or have reared.
Again, I feel for you, although we’re separated by the “Pond” and have never met in life, we are Sisters in Adversity and I hope that 2024 starts to give you and Lodi a break.
Lucy, thank you so much *hugs* <3
I am so sorry to hear about your loss. We have a cat that is getting old and I dread the day when he passes. Animals really are members of our families and the pain we feel when they die is very real. You are in my thoughts.
Thank you Giselle <3 Give your fur baby a hug for me.
Ohhh, Tarah, I’m sooo sorry. We lost our almost 18-year-old cat 6 months ago, and I will never have another. I so understand your “No more horses for me. I can’t do this again.” Gar was blessed to have you, as well as you to have him. Some horses (and cats) are the horse/cat of a lifetime, and that’s all there is to it!
Jean, you are so very right. Gar was my soul horse, I’ve had other horses and loved them, but he was the one. I’m sorry you lost your fur baby *hugs* <3
My most sincere condolences go out. To you and your family. You were very fortunate to have had such a great friend.
Thank Jeannette <3
So sorry for your loss. I’ve never had a horse but have had many dogs,, in fact today would have been the 18th birthday of my beloved Molly if she was still with me. Needless to say I’ve been weepy off and on all day and it’s been 4 years since she passed. She was my dog of a lifetime. As I told a friend who recently lost his dog, no matter how long we have with our fur babies it’s never long enough.
Ann I’m so sorry for your loss – no there will never be enough time for our lifetime animals <3
So sorry to hear about the loss of your horse.
Thank you Claire <3
Tarahlynn, I am so sorry about Gar’s passing. I was a horse girl and had my own horse until I went to college, but I was still able to ride Copper until into my twenties. Losing him was the hardest thing. I always remember the times I sat in his hay trough and told him all my feelings and secrets. Losing a beloved animal friend is so hard. I hope it proves that we have deep love for our fellow animals. Hugs to you, your mom, and Lodi.
Carol, thank you. I spent a lot of time just hanging out with our old boy, talking to him and really just chilling. My husband did too, I have a video of him down there playing his guitar with him lol He will be missed so much. *hugs*
Hi, I literally just started reading your story. I just happened upon you as I was removing shortcuts and uninstalling programs. My heart sank when I read about the loss of your horse. In the past 3 – 5 yrs I have had to say good-bye 4 of my dog babies. 2 to cancer 1 auto immune and 1 to old age. Two in the past 6 months. My heart has not healed yet. I have my baby Lucy Lu 2 1/2 yr old 3 lb Chihuahua and she will most likely be my last.
I am enjoying reading about your life. It is a pleasure, thank you for sharing with us. Have a blessed day.
Oh Susan I am so sorry to hear that. I lost my three childhood dogs within just a couple of years of each other and it still hurts even many years later. We’re down to our two senior dogs now and, honestly, we’re both agreeing they too will probably be our last. I totally understand where you’re coming from!
Tarahlynn
Thank you for being who you are. I so love what you’re doing and how you live and know EXACTLY what you mean when you say you always have to be thinking about your next project, or doing it, or whatever ! I think it’s called creativity ! At least that’s what I keep telling myself. I’m my father’s daughter. He always told us. “you can do anything you put your mind to”. And he was right.
I’m very sorry about Gar. Sounds like you have a deep connection there. You will have that forever. One of my teachers said,” We’re all just walking each other home. ”
Tons of RESPECT T. you are an inspiration and a delight to know there’s yet another wonderfully wild woman out there.
Karen
Oh Karen you give me far too much credit lol thank you for your wonderful comment!